She has certain feelings when she was sick and wrote them and these are some things she mentioned. But i was not comfortable with the role i was playing and neither was my husband comfortable in the role he was playing. One night i was agitated and i called my husband at midnight when he was home and i asked him if i going to die, the fear and confusion in my mind scared me. But my husband comforted me and i felt better. We should just let her go" hearing the nurses talking scared me, and the discussion between the nurses was out loud and i wasn"t the only patient that was scared every patient heard and they were all scared. Intellectually all the nurses know that patients are listening, but they do it anyways because of their stressful day and their daily stress.